I have thought about writing a blog for so many years and every time I leave it at just that, a thought. I have decided that at this point in my life that it would be something I should just do, jump in with both feet.
Let go of my fears of judgment and allow myself to know my own truth and whose judgment actually matters in the end.
So here it goes…I will learn along the way as with anything in life you have to start somewhere.
A Little Back Story
A little back story on why this is truly important to me at this time in my life. When I was 12 years old I lost my mother to cancer. She was beyond anything you could ask for in a loving, compassionate, and faithful mother. (More on her in another post because I feel she needs her own page to completely do her justice!)
After graduating high school I finally found a journal in which my Mom wrote for me. It was something she had started while she was sick before she died. Discovering it was like hearing from someone you were seeking for so long.
Her words touched my soul and gave me hope. In those pages, she reiterated the love she had for me, the dreams she hoped I followed and so much more.
My Motivation For Starting A Blog Altogether
Now that I have my own two boys and know how precious life is I want to have a place where they can find me. I want them to have a place to find my memories, stories, and love.
I have learned throughout the years, living without my mom, that there were so many things that I didn’t know. So many things I didn’t remember or couldn’t understand.
My Hope For This Blog
I have spent so much time searching for my Mom’s message in a world where she doesn’t exist anymore except for in my heart and mind.
My vision for this blog is that it will be a map of our lives from my perspective! A map that can lead my children to me, who I am, who I was, and who I hope to become.
I want this to be a place where I can record our times together, our life highs and lows. An online scrapbook of sorts for our family. A place where we can go to reminiscence together.
A place where our family and friends can see our journey. Where we can meet new people along the way. Not only a place to post about our life as a family but of my experiences as I navigate life.
Mom Life
My life currently entails sleepless nights, two-year-old temper tantrums, boo-boo’s, and all things young children. I want this to be a place where I can share all of these experiences. The ones I am currently tackling and the encounters yet to come on my journey raising children.
There are so many things that I didn’t know and searched endlessly online to find answers to. Questions like:
Why does my baby cry all night and day?
Which diapers are the best?
What bottle should I use and will not give my baby gas?
Which formula is going to help?
How to get my baby to sleep through the night?
Through these endless searches for the magical cures that I so desperately wanted I learned that sometimes there is no perfect answer for your specific issue. That all children are unique and sometimes the saying holds true, “this too shall pass”.
What I did stumble upon during the endless searches that helped me quiet my mind and soul was that in the end, I was not alone. There are endless posts about people struggling or needing support, answers, and encouragement.
Desire To Help, Share & Encourage
I want to contribute to the knowledge that you are not alone by sharing my experiences and what worked for me. I am no expert and have no magic answers. What I do have is a desire to love and care for my children in any way possible. I also know the true struggles that parents go through.
What I can give to others is my encouragement through sharing my own moments of defeat and moments of triumph thus far in my journey.
If my experience can help someone else or just give someone support and hope in knowing that they truly are not alone then that’s what I want to do.
I will say my biggest hope for this blog is that in some way I will help someone along the way!
Plan For My Blog
At this point in my blogging journey, I have no plan or structure that I am stuck on following. For now, I want to go with what comes to me and post about life as it unfolds.
I have some hopes for what this blog will entail as I stated above and I’m sure there will also be posts about cooking & baking, the boys, house projects, funny times, sad times, and all the times in between.
I imagine this to be a catch-all place of my life. My own little space to babble on about my experiences. Where I can learn more about myself, hopefully, help someone in some way and record memories that can be treasured. So I welcome you to my journey!
